it’s raining outside.wish i can sleep.

but then i have a million of things to do.

i have that questionnaire translations which i have to submit in 2 days.

i have that fortnight journals of my students which i have to check.

i have that mountain of assignments which i haven’t marked yet.

and i have that pounding headache banging to my skull telling me to get some rest!

that’s it.i’ma quit, find a rich but old-nak-mati millionnaire and then i’ll be done.

Brad Pitt

Assalamualaikum..

kenapa ye title blog aku kali ni brad pitt? adakah kerana aku nak menjelaskan hubungan aku dengan brad pitt agar para paparazzi sekalian takkan memburukkan nama kami? atau aku hanya berangan semata-mata?

ya betulll…memang aku berangan!!hahahaha…sekarang kan zaman kawan2 aku kawen.tiap2 bulan ade je org kawin. aku bukan tak kisah, aku kisah.sebab tu bila ada org tanya, “ko bila nk kawin?” aku selalu jawab “tunggu brad pitt masuk meminang”.

actually, brad pitt dalam perbualan aku tu hanyalah metafora semata-mata.korang tengoklah brad pitt.perfect.perfect bod, perfect wealth, perfect smile, and most important, perfect attitude!

kalau boleh, nak cari yg macam tu la.tak perlu hensem gile babas.tak caya? cuba korang google gambar brad pitt zaman muda2 dulu.takdela hensem mana pun kan?cuma yang jadi glamour tu sebab perwatakan dia.charisma dia.kesungguhan dia lakonkan watak2 yang diberi walaupun susah (cth: vampire, jadi org tua jadi muda balik, etc).

rasanya pasangan macam ni semua org pun nak.tapi bagi aku, cukuplah sekadar seseorang yang tak tinggal solat, yang tau jaga hati aku, yang tak berkira, yang senyum dia manis, dan yang penting sekali, memahami.

a…sekarang baru korang tau kenapa aku selalu jawab “tunggu brad pitt" masuk meminang” kan?

harap2 pasnih tak salah faham yer??

Omelette with chicken

Assalamualaikum,

its been a while since i last put up a recipe. here i have a recipe i "discovered" while trying to figure out what to eat.

ingredients-

2 medium eggs
3 cloves if garlic
3 spoonfuls of minced chicken
2 lite cheddar slices
1 medium tomato (dice)
half a capsicum (dice)
salt and pepper to taste
olive oil for frying (1 spoon)

1. separate the white eggs and the yolks
2.beat the white with the garlic cloves, tomato and capsicum
3.add the yolks and the minced chicken
4.put a pinch of salt and pepper to taste
5.heat the pan.pour egg mix.lay cheese on the eggs once the eggs are hardened a bit.
6.once the eggs brown a bit, stir the mix.
7.serve with baked beans, pita bread, wholegrain bread or european salad mix

Syikin's Wedding

Assalamualaikum;

here are the photos for ckin's wedding..

Busy as a bee

Its been wayyyyy too long since I've written here. Probably because I've been caught up with the work. What's with the English Proficiency Enhancement Program, the coming English Camp, chaperoning students to "Road to Career" program, Research Cluster...need I tell more?

Nevertheless, every task (no matter how big or small or ahem..irritating) is a responsibility and there really is no way out except for to brace myself and accept the challenge.

We're already progressing into the 11th week of the semester. Things get pretty crazy nowadays. I need to administer progress test, make sure the attendance lists are all signed up, locate all the MCs students gave me, and most important of all, make sure students are well-formed with their carried marks and be familiar with the final exam format.

I have class in 10 mins so let's just wrap up things that happened in the last few weeks.

Trying my hands at photo editing

Za's wedding

Public Speaking Presentation

Basketball Match

Foodahhhhhh

Making beancurd pudding for majlis makan beradab.

That's all. Hopefully after this I have more time to breathe!!! Just breathe!!!

do your own thang

according to one of the proponents of Gestalt, Fritz Perls, human being are born as a whole in the beginning.a wholly entity. however, as we grow up, many experiences had caused a human being to be separated into several different parts. the theory proposed that through the integration or reintegration of these "parts" in our self, then only will we be able to live in a good condition.

i myself have many parts which, to some people, are very unpredictable. for example, there is this part of me which would like to stop everything i am doing now and just simply rest..other part of me wants me to be sulky, turn my back from the world, grow miser and just stop enjoying life.

but there's also another part of me which would stop thinking of others and start thinking of me and only me.and of course, that "part" that will always be here, the part where it says "live for others" will always haunt me wherever i am, whatever my position is right now.

those "parts" of me only appear at a time where things seems blurry, confusing or just simply disadvantaging.these hidden demons only show themselves when i seem to lose my way down the road.

i can't say no to those parts of me as it will be like denying myself from feeling envious of others as they succeed.i can't help it; its natural to feel like that of others.

yet i'm trying day by day to always stop thinking like that.to start thinking a lil bit more positively, to quit being envious of things i can't have, of things i don't want to have or things i don't deserve.

some people might not understand me, but that's just me.i struggle everyday to accept who i am, and to say that i do not feel anything when people tell me how wonderful their lives are is an understatement.

to quote from Perls;

"I do my thing and you do your thing.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
And you are not in this world to live up to mine.
You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful.
If not, it can't be helped."

IT CAN'T BE HELPED.

To Live For Others

i'm stressed but i can't express
i'm terrified but i can't fight
i'm pissed but i can't diss

this is what i am feeling right now.

disappointments by disappointments

by disappointments to a point where I'm sleeping while spelling that word

D-i-s-a-p-p-o-i-n-t-m-e-n-t-s

disappointments= disappoint+ment+s

apparently, disappointments does not come from the word "appoint"

where appoint means: 1)Charge with a task or function 2)Assign a duty, responsibility or obligation to 3) furnish

I'm analyzing the word disappointments and i dont know why

i'm just so freaking disappointed!!!!

i'm disappointed at people
i'm disappointed at how things are
i'm disappointed at how people are making things disappointing for me

i'm just freaking disappointed.