“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” ― Maya Angelou, I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings
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Monday, June 3, 2013
Sugar sugar
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
I want it that way
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| The poster in my room back in 2001 |
I remember seeing them for the first time on a local newspaper. According to E! they debuted in 1996 but for some reasons I only saw BSB in Malaysian media a year later. Now, we all know for each boy band there would always be that one person we really like a.k.a boy band member crush. At first I liked Nick but somehow I ended up going gaga over Kevin Scott Richardson. The proof can be seen in my "autograph book", that tweeny thing we have every year where friends and foes alike write a few words (or pages) of memories about us. Mine was filled with photos of my favourite artists.
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| Everywhere there would be Kevin's photo. And Mariah. They all know how much I love Mariah. |
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| Kevin again. And Mariah. |
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| There's also Mark from Westlife. |
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| And Mariah. |
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| Kevin the hunky member of BSB. |
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| Mariah, BSB and some other guy from another boy band. I think his name is Rich or Richie. |
- What makes you different (makes you beautiful)
- That's what she said
- Don't wanna lose you now
- Spanish eyes
- Let's have a party
- and of course, the magical -I'll never break your heart-
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| So many pictures! |
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| Oh now I remember - my friends put Mark's photos because he looked like this guy I had a crush on from another school, who much much later became my boyfriend (now ex). |
Poem #2 EL-OH-VEE-EE
p/s: if you steal my poem, I might not know but my God does. And if you're agnostic, my God would still know.
Saturday, September 8, 2012
untuk kawan-kawan
pada Aniza,
terima kasih sebab memahami,
temanmu yang seorang ini sangat sensitif,
yang sangat suka berfikir kelebihan orang,
sedangkan kelebihannya sendiri,
jarang-jarang disyukuri.
yang selalu lupa,
kadangkala harta bukan pengukur kebahagiaan,
yang seringkali membandingkan
dirinya dengan orang lain,
dan lepas tu terus tension berhari-hari!
terima kasih kerana sudi melayan temanmu berbual berjam-jam,
hanya kerana temanmu ini berasa sepi.
terima kasih...
pada Natasha,
terima kasih,
kerana sangat-sangat sabar dengan kerenahku,
dengan perangaiku yang suka merajuk,
hanya kerana kau lupa beritahu aku benda-benda
(benda tak penting pun kadang-kadang)
yang selalu meyakinkan aku bahawa suatu hari nanti,
akan ada seorang lelaki "who will love you the way you are"
terima kasih,
kerana sentiasa ada di alam maya (virtual, ok!)
walaupun kita dipisahkan dengan lautan.
terima kasih,
kerana setelah apa yang kita lalui,
kita masih punya memori bahagia bersama.
terima kasih...
pada Cheryl,
terima kasih,
kerana menjadi pendorongku di saat saat aku lemas,
kerana menarik aku keluar dari kekalutan,
kerana sentiasa menyedarkan aku,
bahawa kesusahan hidup yang dialami sekarang
akan bertukar menjadi kesenangan di kemudian hari.
terima kasih,
kerana menyakinkan aku usia 27 tahun bukan halangan
untuk aku meninggalkan "comfort zone" dan meneroka dunia luar.
terima kasih, kerana mengusap kepalaku mengesat airmataku
di saat-saat aku menangis tersedu-sedu
hanya kerana seorang lelaki
(kena mention jugak ke zura oi??)
terima kasih.
pada Nur,
terima kasih.
for pushing me to the edge,
dan menunjukkan padaku,
kalaupun aku jatuh, aku bisa bangun kembali.
terima kasih,
kerana mengajarku erti perjuangan yang sebenar
because just by being yourself,
aku belajar untuk tidak mengalah dengan keadaan,
yang Allah itu penentu takdir,
tapi manusia harus sentiasa berusaha.
terima kasih.
dan kepada sahabat-sahabatku yang lain,
yang kukenal di sekolah, di kusza, di upsi, di uitm, di unisza,
terima kasih...kerana,
walaupun bukan semua memori kita bersama indah-indah,
walaupun pahit masam kelam
kadang-kadang menjengah dalam persahabatan kita,
terima kasih
kerana masih lagi sudi menjadi sahabatku.
terima kasih,
kerana sudi menerima manusia yang kurang sabar,
cepat marah, kadang-kadang tercarut, kurang bersyukur, moody,
makan banyak (masalah ke ni?), malas bersenam, cepat dengki,
buat keje nak cepat-cepat, tak boleh silap sikit, suka mengamuk,
suka psycho orang, bengang bila ngantuk/lapar/letih,
pantang tengok bilik bersepah, suka membebel,
terima kasih kerana menerimaku dalam kehidupanmu.
doaku buat semua sahabat-sahabatku...
"Ya Allah… Ampunilah daku dan sahabatku dan masukkanlah kami kedalam rahmatMu dan Engkau adalah Tuhan yang maha penyayang. Ya Allah… Lindunglah sahabatku dari hilangnya nikmatMu dan berubahnya kesejahteraanMu dan mendadaknya seksaMu dan berbagai macam murkaMu. Ya Allah… Sungguhnya aku bermohon kepadaMu tabahkanlah Kami dalam menghadapi segala urusan dan kekuatan dalam menerima petunjukMu. Ya Allah… Kurniakanlah kepadanya jiwa ketaqwaan dan sucikanlah. Engkaulah sebaik-baik yang mensucikannya. Berilah kemudahan pada kami atas segala kesulitan-kesulitan kami, karena menghilangkan kesulitan itu mudah saja bagi Mu ya Allah. Amin.. Ya Robbal 'alamin..."
TERIMA KASIH SAHABAT!!!
P/s: this was an old post from my old blog.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Missiez's BFF returns home!
Saturday, November 22, 2008
The Poetry Gal
One of the reasons why I went to Dungun last Tuesday was to get this book which I asked my niece to get it from the writer herself. On my way back to KT yesterday, the bus was an hour late, and so I decided to take a look at the book of poems written by Evanna Mohamad Ramly.
I recognized some of the poems almost immediately, as I used to visit Evanna’s blog, where she posted her poems. The one that I like most is “To An Eraser”. I felt like it was very meaningful and it just makes sense. As I continued flipping, I realized one thing: most of the poems which sound serious were written when the writer was in college. I guess that’s also logical because we tend to be very stressful at the college or workplace.
Among the poems that I like very much are:
Plated
“I make no futile attempt
To search for something that clearly isn’t there”
PDA: Painful Delusions of Affections
“Look deep into my eyes
I know there is someone else
Dancing behind yours”
And my favorite:-
To An Eraser
“Do you not tire?
of this dull life that you have
Correcting the mistake of others
by giving away bits of yourself”
There are many occasions where I felt like I am always correcting other people’s mistakes, taking the responsibility of others and being the scapegoat. However, it also makes me much stronger and at times, smarter. That’s why I can relate very much to this one poem.
I think you have displayed a very skillful art of using words to express your emotions. Some of the poems are quite deep and it is still taking me some time to understand, but don’t worry, as I have many days to spend reading, and I have included your book to my reading list. Just to understand what this writer is really trying to say through her writing.
Congratulations for the book. Keep on writing, dear, as what a lot of people would say, it’d be a waste of you ever stop writing.
Again, congratulations.
Friday, November 7, 2008
Makan and Tonton
Last Friday, on the 31st October, I went to Putrajaya with my mother. The purpose of that short visit was to collect my stuffs from college. However, since I realized this is not a chance to be missed, I took the opportunity to meet Ckin and Yda at Damansara (I can’t remember which Damansara, there’re too many Damansaras over there). So on Saturday, I took ERL to KL Sentral and met Yda, and off we go in commuter to Ckin’s house.
We had a nice get-together that day. Watched two movies in a row! Ckin fell asleep for about an hour during the second movie…hehe… We watched “Boys Over Flower” which is Hana Yori Dango in Japan first, and went to dine at Thai Xpress after that. Then we continued our journey with “My Best Friend’s Girl”. That movie was hilarious! I can’t remember the last time I had such fun watching a movie. It’s downright perverted, with so many cursing in a movie that’ll make Pamela Anderson blush!
The initial plan was to give Tony Roma a go, but then after spending so much money on ice cream and food and movies, we had to postpone it. Yda literally drool everytime she passed Tony Roma’s in Cineleisure. Haha…don’t worry, babe! There’s always next time, and next pay check…
Anyways, it was a great day. We went home and went straight to sleep in Ckin’s room. Woke up the next morning, found out Ckin already rushed out for her school activity. We beg her to come early so we can go out some more. Ckin’s message before she went out was…
“Mandi wei! Balik nanti kite pegi jalan-jalan lagi!”
Nevertheless, un-bathed and un-changed our clothes, I cooked Maggi for Yda. Then, while we were lazying around and watching HanaKimi Japan, suddenly we heard footsteps. We were like
“OMG its not Ckin, rite?”.
Check the watch. I looked at Yda, Yda looked at me.
“Do you think she’s back this early?”
“Nah…might be the neighbour!”
Clink clink. It’s the steel gate.
“Waa….its Ckin!! She’s gonna kill us for not getting ready yet!” The door opened…
“WHAT ARE YOU TWO DOING???”
Hehe…sorryla Ckin, we got lost in the Japanese series.
Then we continued our journey to OU. Not much activity though, since I have to be back to Putrajaya before nightfall. Went to have lunch at OnlyMee. It was cool, the food was nice, the price is quite OK. Ckin had Black Pepper Rice, Yda had some kind of noodle soup with seaweed and fishball, and I had Prawn Mee and Seaweed Roll. The Seaweed Roll…I have to tell you this! It melts in your mouth…so nice and yummy, and you wouldn’t even realize it’s gone! The prawn mee was quite delicious too.
I wanted to buy a pair of shoes (just to satisfy this dying heart of having to stay in Terengganu), but I couldn’t find one that I really like. So after making the two girls walked and waited in patient, I finally gave in, and bought some sushi. It’s been a while since I had sushi. I love sushi!
So my get-together with the girls ended there, and I went back to Putrajaya around 8pm. The next day, I woke up, feeling hungry and ajak my mom to Alamanda. My sister in law was like “What? Ajak mak? Naik bas?”… ala…the bus stop is only few steps away from her house. We had late lunch at RasaMas, then went walking around. I was looking at some shoes when my mother suddenly held up one pair of cute black and white sandal and said “Comelnyer selipar ni…”
Sah sah la I kena pau lagi. Nevermind la...it’s a rare chance to take my mother out for a walk in the mall anyway. So she took that sandal and I bought a bronze sandal for me.
We went home that night. Abis cerita pasal Putrajaya.
On Thursday, Charm came to Terengganu and asked me to accompany him and Duan to KUSZA. The place changed a lot nowadays, and even the Language Faculty has moved to a new building. After meeting the Dean (which I found out some bad news…sob sob), I felt somewhat relieved. Even though I didn’t get to meet Madam Akmah and Madam Shamsiah, it’s quite OK to hear that everything is still the same. The spirit of TESLIAN is still alive there!
Met Sir Rosdi and he mentioned Lucillus (Lucy, if you’re reading this, read on!). He praised Lucillus on his good language command. He talked about his memories in UPC, and other things. Nevertheless, a good visit actually.
Then Charm took us to Air Buah Pior, and we had Nasi Minyak, Keropok Lekor – the signature dish of mi county, and Air Buah – of course! There would never be a better place to lepak2 and have keropok lekor sebatang dua with air buah such as this place. Never!
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Holiday (ye ke?)
For one, I’ve always respect my lecturers. But what she did just kinda swept away all my respects. That day I missed one bus trip to KL because of her, and I had to buy another ticket, after waiting for another hour. The trip was supposed to be at 5pm, but I only managed to get outta Tanjung Malim at 7pm. Come on la…have a heart. I’m a student, not a slave. You could’ve just ambik je the thesis and put sumwhere.
Terasa ati dowh…thesis tu aku buat cam nak gile…orang anggap macam taik je. It’s ok. You’re a lecturer. I’m just a lower rank student who doesn’t have any title to my name yet. Wait la when I get one. Huh.
Of all the lecturers here in my university, there’s only one yang betul2 jaga student. I didn’t mean to be rude, but didn’t our parents work their hard ass so bad to pay for the fees…and you just waste their money by not producing…wait…not being a TEACHER to us. I understand that you’re busy, what the heck…
Sometimes terasa jugakla with the perangai lecturers here. Some are really baik. But some are just a pain in the ass. I made myself a vow not to be a big headed person yesterday…after seeing how badly you can be treated just because your rank is lower than someone else’s.
We’re all God’s creature. Ape salahnya merendah diri? I know I’m not that baik or something. I’ll only be nasty if the other parties start first. I just felt so damn underestimated. I know my thesis won’t win the noble prize or something, but hey, at least I wrote it MYSELF. Some people just upah somebody to do it. And you proudly puji that person in the class. If only you knew…
Well well well… I’m not gonna waste my jari to taip everything about you here. Next topic plizzz!!!
Starting from tomorrow, we’ll be having study week. For me, it’s 24-hour-internet-plus-books-movies-per-day kind of week. Tomorrow I’m going to the library and gather as much story books as I can (Paling banyak pun nam bijik je.chait!!). Yay! I think I’ll read one of those oldies…maybe Scarlett Letter? Whateva la…as long as bukan science fiction. Hate em. Double yuck.
I’d love to read Tuesdays With Morrie but I’m not sure if the library here has it. I doubt it. Maybe I’ll try to get the whole set of Shopaholics. They have lots of those Malay novel junks but soooooo little English books. And then you guys up there bising2 plak about the level of English of the students. What the heck.
Yesterday I went to Grand Union wit Tushy and bought junk foods. Lots of em. Bekalan to accompany us while watching or reading or doing whateva to finish this two weeks. exam’s due at 28th April. Lambat lagi tu…
Alamak…lapar plak…k la you blog-readers (heh) see ya again. Daaa!
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Of babies in sarong penyu
This entry ditujukan khas kepada enchek y_n_s...
hehe...jangan marah bro. aku tujukan entry untuk ko sebab aku tengok ko cam depress jak. Hm...you know when you said that "happy is elusive word.we'll never be happy". Not that i take it seriously, but i think happiness is in our mind. sapela taknak happy dalam dunia nih.
Talking about happiness, i look back at my life in university. not that it really sux or anything, i think i made a few good memories, and also a few bad memories. the rest are just trying to survive in this world full of bandits and angels.ewahhhh
Come to think of it, i could have just sit in my hostel room, and do my work, without going out...just sit at the meja study, read everything that i could, and then go to classes, do extremely well in exam.But what does it mean to be in university?What does it mean to live?
I could've save a lot of money if i stop going out with my friends, could have simpan dalam deposit account, but that also means i could have miss the chance to live! So thats why i'm so the very poor but if my friend ajak pegi karaoke ke, tengok teater ke, i'll go.Sebab bila balik my hometown, i'll never have all this chance. And whats the most important is, I'll never have the same crowd to go and have fun with.
I know this might seem so ridiculous to some people, but life is all about giving and taking.I give some, and i get more than what i give.Live is too short to leave all the important things like having good friends to hang out with...and i thank god for giving me such a lively circle of friends.
Everybody has their own perception about life, but the core essence of living does not change no matter what happen.We cannot live on our own, and thus we need other people to fulfil our needs, and other people need us to fulfil theirs.What you think is not important today might be very important to you in the future.Thats how the saying goes "Be nice to people you meet today, no matter how annoying they are.You'll never know what's gonna happen in the future".
Okla i made that saying up..but isnt it true? of course that matter of true or false i leave to you guys to judge.just remember to live every moment.i sum up my entry today with this poem i found in the japanese movie "yuuki". (yuuki is the 8th person in this world who's diagnosed with the "dissolving bones" syndrome)
the essence of life
to comprehend the value of one year,
just ask the students who failed their entrance exam.
to comprehend the value of one month,
jusk ask a mother who gave birth to a premature baby.
to comprehend the value of one week,
jusk ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.
to comprehend the value of one hour,
just ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
to comprehend the value of one minute,
just sk the people who missed their stop on the train.
to comprehend the value of one second,
just ask the person who managed to avoid an accident just in time.
to comprehend the value of one tenth of a second,
just ask the person who ended up with a silver medal at the Olympics.
the hands of the clock will continue ticking.
therefore, treasure every moment you have,
and treat today as the utmost gift you'll have.
p/s: actually, this blog entry has got nothing to do with y_n_s. but then, its all up to your own interpretation.hehe.have a nice day, bro.may you be happy alwiz!
--am listening to "Emo Girl by The New Teen Titans".cool song--










