Syikin's Wedding

Assalamualaikum;

here are the photos for ckin's wedding..

Busy as a bee

Its been wayyyyy too long since I've written here. Probably because I've been caught up with the work. What's with the English Proficiency Enhancement Program, the coming English Camp, chaperoning students to "Road to Career" program, Research Cluster...need I tell more?

Nevertheless, every task (no matter how big or small or ahem..irritating) is a responsibility and there really is no way out except for to brace myself and accept the challenge.

We're already progressing into the 11th week of the semester. Things get pretty crazy nowadays. I need to administer progress test, make sure the attendance lists are all signed up, locate all the MCs students gave me, and most important of all, make sure students are well-formed with their carried marks and be familiar with the final exam format.

I have class in 10 mins so let's just wrap up things that happened in the last few weeks.

Trying my hands at photo editing

Za's wedding

Public Speaking Presentation

Basketball Match

Foodahhhhhh

Making beancurd pudding for majlis makan beradab.

That's all. Hopefully after this I have more time to breathe!!! Just breathe!!!

do your own thang

according to one of the proponents of Gestalt, Fritz Perls, human being are born as a whole in the beginning.a wholly entity. however, as we grow up, many experiences had caused a human being to be separated into several different parts. the theory proposed that through the integration or reintegration of these "parts" in our self, then only will we be able to live in a good condition.

i myself have many parts which, to some people, are very unpredictable. for example, there is this part of me which would like to stop everything i am doing now and just simply rest..other part of me wants me to be sulky, turn my back from the world, grow miser and just stop enjoying life.

but there's also another part of me which would stop thinking of others and start thinking of me and only me.and of course, that "part" that will always be here, the part where it says "live for others" will always haunt me wherever i am, whatever my position is right now.

those "parts" of me only appear at a time where things seems blurry, confusing or just simply disadvantaging.these hidden demons only show themselves when i seem to lose my way down the road.

i can't say no to those parts of me as it will be like denying myself from feeling envious of others as they succeed.i can't help it; its natural to feel like that of others.

yet i'm trying day by day to always stop thinking like that.to start thinking a lil bit more positively, to quit being envious of things i can't have, of things i don't want to have or things i don't deserve.

some people might not understand me, but that's just me.i struggle everyday to accept who i am, and to say that i do not feel anything when people tell me how wonderful their lives are is an understatement.

to quote from Perls;

"I do my thing and you do your thing.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
And you are not in this world to live up to mine.
You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful.
If not, it can't be helped."

IT CAN'T BE HELPED.

To Live For Others

i'm stressed but i can't express
i'm terrified but i can't fight
i'm pissed but i can't diss

this is what i am feeling right now.

disappointments by disappointments

by disappointments to a point where I'm sleeping while spelling that word

D-i-s-a-p-p-o-i-n-t-m-e-n-t-s

disappointments= disappoint+ment+s

apparently, disappointments does not come from the word "appoint"

where appoint means: 1)Charge with a task or function 2)Assign a duty, responsibility or obligation to 3) furnish

I'm analyzing the word disappointments and i dont know why

i'm just so freaking disappointed!!!!

i'm disappointed at people
i'm disappointed at how things are
i'm disappointed at how people are making things disappointing for me

i'm just freaking disappointed.

Here, There and Everywhere

For three consecutive Fridays, my house is filled with the smell of Bubur Assyura, a traditional delicacy cooked in celebration of the 10th of Muharram. Why? Google it yourself lah. What I know is, every year on this date (or a week before and many weeks after) my mom would be busy going here and there, coming home with bags of red beans, white beans, rice, fish, the Asyura spice and many other things. It's always her duty to buy the ingredients, delegate the duties among the closest neighbors and then dutifully watch them do the "kacau-kacau" (stirring) the heavy lumpy porridge.

This year, we did the Asyura porridge three times. THREE times can you believe that? And all is performed in the small of our kitchen. I'm not a big fan of this kind of porridge, because I'm more like a Bubur Lambuk fan. Therefore, having to stay at home for three Fridays, smelling the food that I don't like was such a torture to me!!!

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Oh, and the FELLOWSHIP is mine. Hurrah!!!

Entry Berdegar-degar

Hari ni Khamis, hari yang paling diminati oleh seantero pekerja2 di sini. Jadinya, pagi ni setelah bermesra-mesraan dengan Baby Ain yang dibawa oleh mummynya ke pejabat sebab abangnya Yusoff sudah demam, maka aku pun memulakan langkah menuju ke ofisku yang jauh nun di sana hujung dunia (memang jauh weh..tak cayer? sebatu dari ofis Fakulti Bahasa).

Makanya setelah sampai depan bangunan aku pun cepat2 beli nasi ayam (bang, ayam lebih!), naik ofis, makan nasi ayam, tercekik, minum air, burp~~~Alhamdulillah...cepat2 donload mana2 video yg berkenan di hati, cepat2 kemas barang, grab my class file and PBL file (skarang semua nk bawak Problem-Based Learning dalam klas, maka aku ikut jer) and cepat2 melangkah naik lebuh raya u, cepat2 panjat plak tangga blok G, menuju ke bilik GB13, belek jam kejap - ah, baru pukul 11.10..kalau 11.15, mau aku berlari (klas pukul 11 wei!!!).

Dalam perjalanan nak sampai ke bilik GB13, aku berfikir macam-macam benda. Hari ni semangat giler nak mengajar..hari ni aku nak ajar budak2 berdikari, jadi independent learner..bila aku dapat master nanti, aku nak pulak bimbing diorang jadi manusia berguna!!!!

Maka aku pun membuka pintu kelas dan baru nak ucap "Assala....."

Takde orang.

Sorang pun takde.

Bilik gelap.

Air-cond tutup.

Aku tengok jam. Oh ye! Hari Khamis kelas pukul 11.30 sebab aku bagi can budak2 tu pegi makan dulu. Diorang ade kelas dari 8-1pm non-stop.

Adoi.

Maka aku pun turun ke kafe kat blok D dan menghirup udara segar...

Wet November

All along November, days are spent inside the house, watching the ceiling and wondering whether it will come crashing soon. Apart from that, this month is the ONLY month that I can sleep with a comforter. It's the coolest month of the year and I like and hate it.

Hate it for the damage it caused. My mom's car garage lost ALL its roof, and our house is becoming tongkang pecah as one of the neighbour's roof flew over and hit our roof, and there we have it - the rat-tat-tat sound of rain water dripping from the broken roof, seeping through the white ceiling and right onto the abundance of baldies and kain buruks all laid out on the floor. And my room is right beside the ceiling!