Now i'm sitting in one of the computer labs in my workplace.
Sometimes I wonder whether I am really meant for this job.
Currently, only me and Cheryl are working.
One of us is doing her MA.
I guess money didnt matter to her because she's filthy rich.
ME?
I dunno.
I received the KPM letter last week.
Mom has been bugging me, asking me to go for the interview.
I decided to stay put and think.
Should I do my master this July?
Or should I wait for a year?
My instinct never betrays me.
And this time it says "Take a year to get used to your work. Then apply for fellowship."
Thats what it says.
I don't know whether it's the instinct or the urge to oppose everyone's opinion.
You see...I don't really care about what people say. Especially when I don't ask for your oppinion goddammit!
Recently, my ears were stuck with some lame opinions from the people who aren't worth it.
I really hope that this person will learn someday that you don't have to ALWAYS tell people your two cents worth of opinion.
thats all for today.some other lecturer ius going to use this room.ciao
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Waacky Birthday Gal
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WACKY GURL. you can read her blog here.
aunty wish you all the happiness and wackiness in the world.
hope you have a wonderful array of boyfriends...
hahahahaha...
if only the guys that i like are not liar, double-sided, muka kuali and, well..liar..
meanwhile...get the book.
awesome!
i'm juggling between "the kite runner" and "i'm in no mood for love"
pretty exhausted trying to read two books at once...
but hey...life's a bed of books..
so read and be-read!!!
Monday, January 19, 2009
Ape Dah Jadi...?
aku pakai ubat gigi colgate, pencuci muka loreal, henpon nokia, suka makan kat kfc, mcD jarang2 skali, tengok muvie omputeh, pastu pakai pc yang ada cip intel.
kalo camtu bleh panggil aku zionis ke?
kalau aku tau colgate tu bagi untung kat israel, takdela plak aku nak pakai colgate semenjak 20 tahun yang lalu.
dah pencuci muka loreal tu elok, aku beli la. dulu2 mase pakai safi balqis takde elok mcm tu.lagi naik jerawat ade.abis tu nk try Felisa Kosmetik ke?
dan henpon nokia tu mak aku bagi adiah.
logik sikit la fikir.kalau betul nak boikot, pasal ape bagi barang tu masuk Malaysia?
ape Israel baru jadi jahat dua tiga bulan lepas ke?
time dulu2 tak sedor plak ye.
ape2 je la.
HUWARGHHHHH!!!!
kalo camtu bleh panggil aku zionis ke?
kalau aku tau colgate tu bagi untung kat israel, takdela plak aku nak pakai colgate semenjak 20 tahun yang lalu.
dah pencuci muka loreal tu elok, aku beli la. dulu2 mase pakai safi balqis takde elok mcm tu.lagi naik jerawat ade.abis tu nk try Felisa Kosmetik ke?
dan henpon nokia tu mak aku bagi adiah.
logik sikit la fikir.kalau betul nak boikot, pasal ape bagi barang tu masuk Malaysia?
ape Israel baru jadi jahat dua tiga bulan lepas ke?
time dulu2 tak sedor plak ye.
ape2 je la.
HUWARGHHHHH!!!!
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Seven Common Dreams and What They Mean
This article can be found here: http://www.divinecaroline.com/article/22201/53010-seven-common-dreams-mean
Dreams come to us in our most private moments: wrapped up in sheets, our public faces stored away for the night. The visions we see in sleep are supposed to be expressions of our individual psyches and imaginations, but most people’s dreams are based on themes that are very common. I thought my recurring dream of losing my teeth was scary and freakish until I went online to find thousands of others having the same dream, all trying to find out what the heck it could mean. Just because our dreams are shared, though, doesn’t mean they aren’t unique; the way we experience these common elements in dreaming life is what’s significant.
1. Being chased.
Candice Janco, author of the Bedside Dream Dictionary: 500 Dream Symbols and Their Meanings, describes this dream (the most common) as an indication of a felt threat in your waking life. This threat can take the form of a menacing person or a strong emotion with which you are having difficulty coping. Try to determine who or what is chasing you, where the dream takes place, and what your feelings are during the chase to understand what this dreams means to you.
2. Missing an important event because you are late.
This can indicate regret over a missed opportunity, inability to make a connection, or desire to pull oneself together. In Dream Power: How to Use Your Night Dreams to Change Your Life, Cynthia Richmond suggests asking questions of dreams in order to understand what this common symbol means to you. For example: What are you missing? Who is disappointed by the missed event? Is it only you or are there others involved?
3. Finding yourself at work or school naked.
Not surprisingly, Freud interpreted dreams about being naked as repressed sexual wishes. But the most important part of this dream is the feelings that are involved. You suddenly find yourself exposed, vulnerable, and awkward. What area of your life corresponds to that feeling? Figure this out by noting where you are, who notices you, what part of you is exposed, how people react to you, and how you yourself react to the situation.
4. Falling.
Falling indicates feelings of insecurity and lack of support. What situation have you “fallen into?” Who has “let you down?” Perhaps not surprisingly, this particular dream is most common among professional men and women. The Illustrated Dream Dictionary authors Russell Grant and Vicky Emptage note the close relationship between “falling” and “failing.” They also note that the dream’s meaning is probably not so clear-cut. Grant and Emptage ascribe dreams of falling to feelings of isolation, the sense of being without the support and affection that success cannot provide.
5. Flying.
Interestingly, Grant and Emptage interpret flying dreams as boasting about sexual powers. The important part of the dream is how you are flying; since the flying itself represents your ambitions, are you flying successfully, or trying and failing to fly as high as possible? From there, they make the leap to feelings of sexual inadequacy, but such feelings of low self-esteem could cover inadequacy of any kind, not just sexual.
6. Losing your teeth.
This theme has a number of potential meanings because of the very different significances teeth have to different people. Our teeth are representative of our appearance because our smiles are one of the first things people notice about us. Therefore, dreaming about losing your teeth can indicate insecurity about your appearance, or even fears of sexual impotence, as teeth are often used to flirt with a desired partner. We also use our teeth to bite, chew, and tear, so losing them can mean a loss of power or fear of getting old. Interestingly, this dream is most common among menopausal women, perhaps for all of the above reasons.
7. Snakes.
Snakes have been a fear in dreams for quite some time. The ancient Egyptians used to make snakes out of clay and place them at the doors of their homes to frighten away nightmares, believing that snakes were bringers of bad dreams and that the clay snake would keep real ones away. Dreammoods, an online encyclopedia of dream meanings, reports that snakes signify some hidden threat. This makes sense, as most of us fear the “snake in the grass.” Like most other symbols, though, this one has many meanings that depend on context. Snakes shed their skin, so they may signify renewal and transformation. This may be a frightening experience, as most people are uncomfortable with change, or it may be very positive.
In all of our dreams, the true meanings emerge when we decide what they really mean to us. Though these dream symbols are shared among many, and we can determine general explanations for them, it is the context in which we place them that is significant. Read all you can about dream meanings to find information that may be relevant to you, but also ask questions about your dreams and how these symbols make you feel. Once you dig a little deeper, you may find answers and clarity.
From all of the types of dreams, I had number 1,3,4 and 5 the most. I wonder why.
What do you all think?
Dreams come to us in our most private moments: wrapped up in sheets, our public faces stored away for the night. The visions we see in sleep are supposed to be expressions of our individual psyches and imaginations, but most people’s dreams are based on themes that are very common. I thought my recurring dream of losing my teeth was scary and freakish until I went online to find thousands of others having the same dream, all trying to find out what the heck it could mean. Just because our dreams are shared, though, doesn’t mean they aren’t unique; the way we experience these common elements in dreaming life is what’s significant.
1. Being chased.
Candice Janco, author of the Bedside Dream Dictionary: 500 Dream Symbols and Their Meanings, describes this dream (the most common) as an indication of a felt threat in your waking life. This threat can take the form of a menacing person or a strong emotion with which you are having difficulty coping. Try to determine who or what is chasing you, where the dream takes place, and what your feelings are during the chase to understand what this dreams means to you.
2. Missing an important event because you are late.
This can indicate regret over a missed opportunity, inability to make a connection, or desire to pull oneself together. In Dream Power: How to Use Your Night Dreams to Change Your Life, Cynthia Richmond suggests asking questions of dreams in order to understand what this common symbol means to you. For example: What are you missing? Who is disappointed by the missed event? Is it only you or are there others involved?
3. Finding yourself at work or school naked.
Not surprisingly, Freud interpreted dreams about being naked as repressed sexual wishes. But the most important part of this dream is the feelings that are involved. You suddenly find yourself exposed, vulnerable, and awkward. What area of your life corresponds to that feeling? Figure this out by noting where you are, who notices you, what part of you is exposed, how people react to you, and how you yourself react to the situation.
4. Falling.
Falling indicates feelings of insecurity and lack of support. What situation have you “fallen into?” Who has “let you down?” Perhaps not surprisingly, this particular dream is most common among professional men and women. The Illustrated Dream Dictionary authors Russell Grant and Vicky Emptage note the close relationship between “falling” and “failing.” They also note that the dream’s meaning is probably not so clear-cut. Grant and Emptage ascribe dreams of falling to feelings of isolation, the sense of being without the support and affection that success cannot provide.
5. Flying.
Interestingly, Grant and Emptage interpret flying dreams as boasting about sexual powers. The important part of the dream is how you are flying; since the flying itself represents your ambitions, are you flying successfully, or trying and failing to fly as high as possible? From there, they make the leap to feelings of sexual inadequacy, but such feelings of low self-esteem could cover inadequacy of any kind, not just sexual.
6. Losing your teeth.
This theme has a number of potential meanings because of the very different significances teeth have to different people. Our teeth are representative of our appearance because our smiles are one of the first things people notice about us. Therefore, dreaming about losing your teeth can indicate insecurity about your appearance, or even fears of sexual impotence, as teeth are often used to flirt with a desired partner. We also use our teeth to bite, chew, and tear, so losing them can mean a loss of power or fear of getting old. Interestingly, this dream is most common among menopausal women, perhaps for all of the above reasons.
7. Snakes.
Snakes have been a fear in dreams for quite some time. The ancient Egyptians used to make snakes out of clay and place them at the doors of their homes to frighten away nightmares, believing that snakes were bringers of bad dreams and that the clay snake would keep real ones away. Dreammoods, an online encyclopedia of dream meanings, reports that snakes signify some hidden threat. This makes sense, as most of us fear the “snake in the grass.” Like most other symbols, though, this one has many meanings that depend on context. Snakes shed their skin, so they may signify renewal and transformation. This may be a frightening experience, as most people are uncomfortable with change, or it may be very positive.
In all of our dreams, the true meanings emerge when we decide what they really mean to us. Though these dream symbols are shared among many, and we can determine general explanations for them, it is the context in which we place them that is significant. Read all you can about dream meanings to find information that may be relevant to you, but also ask questions about your dreams and how these symbols make you feel. Once you dig a little deeper, you may find answers and clarity.
From all of the types of dreams, I had number 1,3,4 and 5 the most. I wonder why.
What do you all think?
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
A New Year, A New Beginning
yeah yeah I know it's lame! but things have changed a lot since I have last updated.
First, I am no longer a jobless fresh graduate.
Second, I have my own office!
Third, I have moved to the place where I have to work.
and lastly...
Um..I wanna thank a lot of people who have been very patient dealing with me and my sick mood. But I just want you guys to know that after I did what I've done, usually I'd go home and ponder about it for days.
So yeah I do still have regrets and I usually don't forget about it so soon.
Sorry if I ever make anybody feel mad or angry of freaking pissed but I think I always (I think, OK??) apologize.
Except for when I don't want to because I know I am not guilty.
Anyways I hope you guys have a wonderful year ahead.
This thing that I have, it's not much. But hey...it's MINE.
......
so thats it for update.enjoy life, guys!
Friday, December 19, 2008
Tagged by Amie
Aku ni kadang2 tertanya2 jugak menatang apekah "tag" ini dan siapakah penciptanya? Mesti orang yang cipta tag nih orang yang banyak sangat masa terluang kan? kan? Pastu mestilah dia nak ajak orang lain meluangkan masa macam dia kan? kan? kan....????
Okaylah Ami..bersiap sedialah dengan serangan balas tag aku...
1) do you think you’re hot?
Oh yes.I'm wearing red tudung, black shirt and blue jeans,how hot is that?
2) upload your favourite picture of you
huk ala...semua tak pakai tudung. so takleh upload!
3) what do you like about that picture?
that i actually do look beautiful nonetheless what that person who is tudung-less think.boy didnt i beat her at that!
4) when was the last time u ate pizza?
i think last two weeks.got that one of those instant pizza.juz reheat in oven.added in some cheese for the taste and voila!
5) the last song u listened to?
Yuna-deeper conversation
6)what are u doing right now besides this?
well...chat with oldskoolbee and cheryl.
7)what name would u prefer besides yours?
a rose by any other name would smell as sweet.but my name is not rose so i like my name.haha..apedaa aku merapu nih.
ppl i tag :
1.ticer eg
2.izzy-anne sycho
3.maddy
8 ) who is no.1
my x-college mate.
9) who is no.2?
my niece.
10) say something abt no.5
there is no no.5!
11) how abt no.4?
i dunno.you tell me.
12) who is no.3?
she's a friend from university.
13) finally,tell abt no.6
takde dah..
Okaylah Ami..bersiap sedialah dengan serangan balas tag aku...
1) do you think you’re hot?
Oh yes.I'm wearing red tudung, black shirt and blue jeans,how hot is that?
2) upload your favourite picture of you
huk ala...semua tak pakai tudung. so takleh upload!
3) what do you like about that picture?
that i actually do look beautiful nonetheless what that person who is tudung-less think.boy didnt i beat her at that!
4) when was the last time u ate pizza?
i think last two weeks.got that one of those instant pizza.juz reheat in oven.added in some cheese for the taste and voila!
5) the last song u listened to?
Yuna-deeper conversation
6)what are u doing right now besides this?
well...chat with oldskoolbee and cheryl.
7)what name would u prefer besides yours?
a rose by any other name would smell as sweet.but my name is not rose so i like my name.haha..apedaa aku merapu nih.
ppl i tag :
1.ticer eg
2.izzy-anne sycho
3.maddy
8 ) who is no.1
my x-college mate.
9) who is no.2?
my niece.
10) say something abt no.5
there is no no.5!
11) how abt no.4?
i dunno.you tell me.
12) who is no.3?
she's a friend from university.
13) finally,tell abt no.6
takde dah..
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Dreams from My Father
During my last visit to the library (which was two days ago), I finally found John McCain’s Faith from my fathers. Ha…I’m so glad! In fact, when I found the book, I almost shout, and the pakcik reading a book around the Lincoln Corner section stared at me. I bet he’s thinking what’s this girl so happy about being in the library? But I am happy! I mean, if I can’t afford to buy what I want to read, finding them in a library which its book shelves are almost half-empty would be good innit? Seriously, this state library needs so many books to fill in those shelves!
Now this might be weird because I never were interested in biographies, but since I now am practically jobless, I decided to give Obama’s a go. I’m never interested in politics; somehow, I find it satisfying to read a book written by a person who could make so many changes to the world.
Dreams from My Father by Barack Obama
I first heard of this book from Johan Jaaffar, an NST columnist who wrote about the two
Anyways, this is one of those “cant-put-down” types of books, where each page will lead you to another with much anticipation and curiosity. What will he do next? Where is he heading with this? What happened to that person? It’s a very interesting insight into this Us-President-to-be Obama’s mind. For me, it explains where his extreme determination of leading a country comes from. There’s always a conflict inside him, being a black man in a white-dominated country. But that doesn’t stop him from reaching out to people. It is the case of self-discovery for Barack, much as what most of us really need sometimes.
Seems like he’s always in a dilemma of his origin, his present doings and what the future holds for him. One of the most meaningful things that he said which I quote here is:-
“I can see that my choices were never truly alone – and that that is how it should be, that to assert otherwise is to chase after a sorry sort of freedom”.
Which is exactly what I feel right now. To choose my own path would mean to disobey my mother. However, if I were to insist to do what I want to do, it will only mean that I take one step ahead that will make me fall two steps back. I would always go back to where I come from. So why make it such difficult thing for that person who raises me up? I decided to let things happen naturally. To be ready with whatever result will come out of my action – to stay in hometown.
Okay now…I’m going to start on McCain soon. Hopefully this one won’t let me down. Meanwhile, guys, enjoy the green green grass in front of your house while you still can!
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