To Live For Others

i'm stressed but i can't express
i'm terrified but i can't fight
i'm pissed but i can't diss

this is what i am feeling right now.

disappointments by disappointments

by disappointments to a point where I'm sleeping while spelling that word

D-i-s-a-p-p-o-i-n-t-m-e-n-t-s

disappointments= disappoint+ment+s

apparently, disappointments does not come from the word "appoint"

where appoint means: 1)Charge with a task or function 2)Assign a duty, responsibility or obligation to 3) furnish

I'm analyzing the word disappointments and i dont know why

i'm just so freaking disappointed!!!!

i'm disappointed at people
i'm disappointed at how things are
i'm disappointed at how people are making things disappointing for me

i'm just freaking disappointed.