Thursday, January 13, 2011

sapu habuk jap!

hoi hai hoi..dah lama tak menghapdet disini.mungkinkah sebab aku ada blog rahsia dimana-mana? mungkinkah? kah? kah? kalau ada pun aku takkan letak sini punya.jap agi ada orang terasa plak. eh??? tak main ah terasa terasa nih.kalau nak terasa terasa gi main jauh-jauh syohhhhhh...

anyways..hmph..semenjak last post..the world has turned 360 degrees for me. just let me make a list of things that have changed since the last post which was last year.last year???

in 2010,
- i was a lecturer
- i have to wake up early to reach class by 8am (which i never did.duh)
- i was around a lot of people which i don't feel at ease with (notice the "present tense" used)
- i had to listen to other people a lot
- i had to do a lot of things that i like, but involuntarily (kenapa negative je nih? was last year that bad?)
- i exercised a lot (finally, positive!)
- i didn't get to know a lot of new people
- i love research, but some jerks are always in my way
- i stayed at home and i feel trapped because of problems at work
- i was severely depressed because of (again) problems at work
(even while searching for the pics to go along with this post, when i see the office condition, i feel my heart beating fast. that was how bad i felt at work.now i feel at ease, Alhamdulillah, insya Allah)

in 2011
- i registered as a student (oh.no.the table has turned.now i'm on the chair and no longer standing in front of the class)
- i like my new environment.
- i met a lot of people
- i met a lot of people and i don't necessarily have to like them
- i can do research at my own pace and time
- i can wake up at anytime i like 6 days a week (that's cuz tuesday's class is at 9am and have to wake up at 6 to catch the 6.45am bus)
- i walked a lot.like, A LOT. i hike a lot too.so i guess there really are exercises in my daily life here.
- and i'm finally at ease,Alhamdulillah.

i no longer worries about unnecessary things, like "would this blouse be too short?". i have no time to worry about that here in the university.

it was an exhausting, long-winding, tough year in 2010.i was depressed and i admit, i didn't do much to get out of the sickly state of mind. i hope this year will better. in fact, i promised myself that this year would be better if i work hard for it. money-wise, i already feel the sting. but emotional-wise, i'm much more at ease. i took long, peaceful breathes more, and i start to think creatively again (yes!). i guess i just need a fresh environment, with less patronizing people in it.

having said that, a late wish then: HAPPY NEW YEAR..