Thursday, September 27, 2012

D-day

My heart is beating so fast I could not breath.

My hands are clammy, my palms are sweaty.

My eyes are red.

My nose is runny.

My body is weak.

I hate today.

Monday, September 10, 2012

Serial killers...i mean, novels

I think serial novels are killers. They (the novels) hide in the book shelves in libraries or bookshops, taking  furtive glance at me as I think of what to read, and subsequently decided on a plan to kidnap me into their world of "you-would-be-left-wondering-what-happens-to-the-characters-FOREVER". 

Yes, such is the cruelty of serial novels. Don't believe me? Case 1: KUSZA (a.k.a UniSZA) library, 2002. I was wondering what next Archer's masterpiece to read once I finished As The Crow Flies. There they were, Kane and Abel and The Prodigal Daughter. Mind you, the latter is the sequence of the former. I took Kane and Abel, spent few days reading it, and by the end of the story I want more of Archer. Luckily, both books were published few years before I was born and finding them is not hard in the library.



Case 2: MPH, 2011. I was wondering what to do with the voucher given to university students. At that time I have spent half of it on stationeries. Books? Oh please, RM200 could only buy one, ONE metaphor book, my dear PM. So I spent the money on stationeries, at least I would not have to worry paying RM7 for a pen. It's free!

Ok lets get back to the story. Since it was a week away from the voucher from being a useless piece of paper with "RM50" stamped on it, I had decided to get at least one novel. So I browsed through Archer's latest publication and found "Only Time Will Tell". I had read the book up until the last few pages, and after a considerable amount of teardrops (I mean, what kind of soul would not cry reading Archer's?), I stopped reading and turned to the back page. There it is, that paragraph of death "The Clifton CHRONICLES is Jeffrey Archer's most ambitious work in four decades as an international bestselling author".




CHRONICLE?!!

I looked for the second instalment but to no avail. I found out that it would be out in May 2012. I had to wait for the paperback which will be available beginning mid September. So, I still don't know what will happen to Harry. Sigh~~

Case 3: Book Xcess, 2012. Now this one is a happy ending story. I picked up "Corduroy Mansions" as I thought it looks interesting. Once I finished it, then only I found out that it is one of three books in the series. So I checked Book Xcess website and found out that they have the second book (yay!). Not quite satisfied with the website, I called them last Sunday and they confirmed that "The Dog Who Came In From The Cold" was still available. I got dressed, took the Putra train to Taman Jaya and walked as fast as I can to the bookstore (which has crazy price on everything). And what did I find first? The third book! As I looked around the store for The Dawg, I found "A Conspiracy of Friends"...and I don't need to tell you the rest now do I? (Just finished The Dawg, want to continue with "Friends" but I am quite sleepy now).


They're all worth it, you know...all those novels I've read. I'm glad I have the chance to read them. Right now I'm waiting for Sins of The Father to come out in paperback, and I would buy it with normal price at MPH instead of waiting for the price to go down at Book Xcess. 

What chronicles/serial novels have you read?

Saturday, September 8, 2012

The busier past

I have been taking too long to manage my blogs. Finally, tonight I gathered those posts in one place and deleted those old blogs.

I've always felt really good after a de-cluttering process takes place. It feels...lighter, motivating even. And forgive me if I sound very dull. I am trying my best at being careful with my grammar use.


I am in the middle of writing my proposal. For the last six, seven months I have spent countless hours reading, paraphrasing, writing, counting, you name it. Finally I arrived at one conclusion: just do whatever the heck your supervisor asked you to. 

It is such a long, winding journey, writing this proposal. I deserve the reprimand because of my careless use of certain articles and prepositions. But sometimes I feel tired. Like these past two weeks I have been editing my proposal non-stop. And that's only 1500 words...what would happen when I write my dissertation of 40,000 words? I'll probably go crazy.


Crazy or not, this is a battle worth taking. Wish me luck eh?

untuk kawan-kawan

hari ni saya nak ucapkan terima kasih kepada mereka yang saya kenali bertahun-tahun lamanya (ada yang lebih 13 tahun dan ada juga baru kenal setahun setengah tapi macam kenal bertahun-tahun).

pada Aniza,
terima kasih sebab memahami,
temanmu yang seorang ini sangat sensitif,
yang sangat suka berfikir kelebihan orang,
sedangkan kelebihannya sendiri,
jarang-jarang disyukuri.
yang selalu lupa,
kadangkala harta bukan pengukur kebahagiaan,
yang seringkali membandingkan
dirinya dengan orang lain,
dan lepas tu terus tension berhari-hari!
terima kasih kerana sudi melayan temanmu berbual berjam-jam,
hanya kerana temanmu ini berasa sepi.
terima kasih...

pada Natasha,
terima kasih,
kerana sangat-sangat sabar dengan kerenahku,
dengan perangaiku yang suka merajuk,
hanya kerana kau lupa beritahu aku benda-benda
(benda tak penting pun kadang-kadang)
yang selalu meyakinkan aku bahawa suatu hari nanti,
akan ada seorang lelaki "who will love you the way you are"
terima kasih,
kerana sentiasa ada di alam maya (virtual, ok!)
walaupun kita dipisahkan dengan lautan.
terima kasih,
kerana setelah apa yang kita lalui,
kita masih punya memori bahagia bersama.
terima kasih...

pada Cheryl,
terima kasih,
kerana menjadi pendorongku di saat saat aku lemas,
kerana menarik aku keluar dari kekalutan,
kerana sentiasa menyedarkan aku,
bahawa kesusahan hidup yang dialami sekarang
akan bertukar menjadi kesenangan di kemudian hari.
terima kasih,
kerana menyakinkan aku usia 27 tahun bukan halangan
untuk aku meninggalkan "comfort zone" dan meneroka dunia luar.
terima kasih, kerana mengusap kepalaku mengesat airmataku
di saat-saat aku menangis tersedu-sedu
hanya kerana seorang lelaki
(kena mention jugak ke zura oi??)
terima kasih.

pada Nur,
terima kasih.
for pushing me to the edge,
dan menunjukkan padaku,
kalaupun aku jatuh, aku bisa bangun kembali.
terima kasih,
kerana mengajarku erti perjuangan yang sebenar
because just by being yourself,
aku belajar untuk tidak mengalah dengan keadaan,
yang Allah itu penentu takdir,
tapi manusia harus sentiasa berusaha.
terima kasih.

dan kepada sahabat-sahabatku yang lain,
yang kukenal di sekolah, di kusza, di upsi, di uitm, di unisza,
terima kasih...kerana,
walaupun bukan semua memori kita bersama indah-indah,

walaupun pahit masam kelam
kadang-kadang menjengah dalam persahabatan kita,

terima kasih
kerana masih lagi sudi menjadi sahabatku.
terima kasih,
kerana sudi menerima manusia yang kurang sabar,

cepat marah, kadang-kadang tercarut, kurang bersyukur, moody,

makan banyak (masalah ke ni?), malas bersenam, cepat dengki,
buat keje nak cepat-cepat, tak boleh silap sikit, suka mengamuk,
suka psycho orang, bengang bila ngantuk/lapar/letih,
pantang tengok bilik bersepah, suka membebel,
terima kasih kerana menerimaku dalam kehidupanmu.

doaku buat semua sahabat-sahabatku...

"Ya Allah… Ampunilah daku dan sahabatku dan masukkanlah kami kedalam rahmatMu dan Engkau adalah Tuhan yang maha penyayang. Ya Allah… Lindunglah sahabatku dari hilangnya nikmatMu dan berubahnya kesejahteraanMu dan mendadaknya seksaMu dan berbagai macam murkaMu. Ya Allah… Sungguhnya aku bermohon kepadaMu tabahkanlah Kami dalam menghadapi segala urusan dan kekuatan dalam menerima petunjukMu. Ya Allah… Kurniakanlah kepadanya jiwa ketaqwaan dan sucikanlah. Engkaulah sebaik-baik yang mensucikannya. Berilah kemudahan pada kami atas segala kesulitan-kesulitan kami, karena menghilangkan kesulitan itu mudah saja bagi Mu ya Allah. Amin.. Ya Robbal 'alamin..."

TERIMA KASIH SAHABAT!!!

P/s: this was an old post from my old blog.