according to one of the proponents of Gestalt, Fritz Perls, human being are born as a whole in the beginning.a wholly entity. however, as we grow up, many experiences had caused a human being to be separated into several different parts. the theory proposed that through the integration or reintegration of these "parts" in our self, then only will we be able to live in a good condition.
i myself have many parts which, to some people, are very unpredictable. for example, there is this part of me which would like to stop everything i am doing now and just simply rest..other part of me wants me to be sulky, turn my back from the world, grow miser and just stop enjoying life.
but there's also another part of me which would stop thinking of others and start thinking of me and only me.and of course, that "part" that will always be here, the part where it says "live for others" will always haunt me wherever i am, whatever my position is right now.
those "parts" of me only appear at a time where things seems blurry, confusing or just simply disadvantaging.these hidden demons only show themselves when i seem to lose my way down the road.
i can't say no to those parts of me as it will be like denying myself from feeling envious of others as they succeed.i can't help it; its natural to feel like that of others.
yet i'm trying day by day to always stop thinking like that.to start thinking a lil bit more positively, to quit being envious of things i can't have, of things i don't want to have or things i don't deserve.
some people might not understand me, but that's just me.i struggle everyday to accept who i am, and to say that i do not feel anything when people tell me how wonderful their lives are is an understatement.
to quote from Perls;
"I do my thing and you do your thing.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
And you are not in this world to live up to mine.
You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful.
If not, it can't be helped."
IT CAN'T BE HELPED.
i myself have many parts which, to some people, are very unpredictable. for example, there is this part of me which would like to stop everything i am doing now and just simply rest..other part of me wants me to be sulky, turn my back from the world, grow miser and just stop enjoying life.
but there's also another part of me which would stop thinking of others and start thinking of me and only me.and of course, that "part" that will always be here, the part where it says "live for others" will always haunt me wherever i am, whatever my position is right now.
those "parts" of me only appear at a time where things seems blurry, confusing or just simply disadvantaging.these hidden demons only show themselves when i seem to lose my way down the road.
i can't say no to those parts of me as it will be like denying myself from feeling envious of others as they succeed.i can't help it; its natural to feel like that of others.
yet i'm trying day by day to always stop thinking like that.to start thinking a lil bit more positively, to quit being envious of things i can't have, of things i don't want to have or things i don't deserve.
some people might not understand me, but that's just me.i struggle everyday to accept who i am, and to say that i do not feel anything when people tell me how wonderful their lives are is an understatement.
to quote from Perls;
"I do my thing and you do your thing.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
And you are not in this world to live up to mine.
You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful.
If not, it can't be helped."
IT CAN'T BE HELPED.
