Hari ini genap sebulan saya bercuti. Saya sebenarnya sudah mati akal memikirkan apa mau buat sepanjang cuti. Last week saya kerja. This week saya tiada kerja lagi. Dapat gaji plak tu this week. (No no no, bukan saya diberhentikan, tetapi part time job saya hanya setakat seminggu).
Ingin mencari kerja lain, tetapi saya tidak berminat. Ingin menjadi tourist guide, tetapi sudah dua kali saya pergi ke pejabatnya, pintu pula dikunci. Oh tidak. Adakah ini konspirasi terhadap saya???
Hahaha…
I guess a jobless life is boring after all. I lost some of my vocabularies, thanks to days of immersing myself with no-speaking English people of my kampong. I gasp for words to speak. Agaknya when I’m going for interview, I need to speak to the mirror. I think I kinda lost my accent too…
Not that it’s really bad or something. I still didn’t receive my final result, so that practically disqualify me from applying for any job at all. I mean, sure I can try but then some websites keeps rejecting my application because I don’t have the final result.
Last few nights, I did some calculation on my GPA and GPS. Turned out to be that it didn’t matter whether I get an A- or a B+, the difference is only 0.02 points. Hopefully, I’ll maintain my GPA.
By the way, Raya this year makes me totally gloomy. There’s only me and my mother in the house. It’s quite pathetic actually. Nowadays before I go to sleep, I would look at my mother’s face and wonder whether I should leave the house someday. She took care of me and it’s an unthinkable for me to leave her alone.
Come to think of it, a lot of my friends are blessed with both parents still alive, and they would have no problem at all to get married and live elsewhere. A friend of mine is getting engaged this December. Quite frequently, it makes me wonder whether my life would be easier if I am well-off, and my parents are rich.
But then, if I were to be like that, I might have lost the chance of experiencing true life. A life full of ups and downs, a different kind of life where I always have to strive hard to get what I want.
Truthfully, normal life is boring. I would never allow myself to live normally. Some people say that I always look for troubles. Thing is, trouble is fun! They make me more skilled at things. They make me look ahead, and be more thankful each day that God has sent me all these troubles to make me smarter and stronger that people around me.
I think that’s the reason why I don’t want to register as a government servant. I want to be able to travel, to do things at my own pace, and to work in a less-controlled environment. I hate regiments and rules.
So that’s it. I think the coming New Year will be a tough one for me…the year where I will be facing the real world, instead of learning about it. I love teaching, but I don’t feel like teaching in school because of the many facets of administration I have to face.
And hopefully, I'll get my dream job. Insya-Allah...
Ingin mencari kerja lain, tetapi saya tidak berminat. Ingin menjadi tourist guide, tetapi sudah dua kali saya pergi ke pejabatnya, pintu pula dikunci. Oh tidak. Adakah ini konspirasi terhadap saya???
Hahaha…
I guess a jobless life is boring after all. I lost some of my vocabularies, thanks to days of immersing myself with no-speaking English people of my kampong. I gasp for words to speak. Agaknya when I’m going for interview, I need to speak to the mirror. I think I kinda lost my accent too…
Not that it’s really bad or something. I still didn’t receive my final result, so that practically disqualify me from applying for any job at all. I mean, sure I can try but then some websites keeps rejecting my application because I don’t have the final result.
Last few nights, I did some calculation on my GPA and GPS. Turned out to be that it didn’t matter whether I get an A- or a B+, the difference is only 0.02 points. Hopefully, I’ll maintain my GPA.
By the way, Raya this year makes me totally gloomy. There’s only me and my mother in the house. It’s quite pathetic actually. Nowadays before I go to sleep, I would look at my mother’s face and wonder whether I should leave the house someday. She took care of me and it’s an unthinkable for me to leave her alone.
Come to think of it, a lot of my friends are blessed with both parents still alive, and they would have no problem at all to get married and live elsewhere. A friend of mine is getting engaged this December. Quite frequently, it makes me wonder whether my life would be easier if I am well-off, and my parents are rich.
But then, if I were to be like that, I might have lost the chance of experiencing true life. A life full of ups and downs, a different kind of life where I always have to strive hard to get what I want.
Truthfully, normal life is boring. I would never allow myself to live normally. Some people say that I always look for troubles. Thing is, trouble is fun! They make me more skilled at things. They make me look ahead, and be more thankful each day that God has sent me all these troubles to make me smarter and stronger that people around me.
I think that’s the reason why I don’t want to register as a government servant. I want to be able to travel, to do things at my own pace, and to work in a less-controlled environment. I hate regiments and rules.
So that’s it. I think the coming New Year will be a tough one for me…the year where I will be facing the real world, instead of learning about it. I love teaching, but I don’t feel like teaching in school because of the many facets of administration I have to face.
And hopefully, I'll get my dream job. Insya-Allah...
5 comments:
happy holidayzzzzzzzz miss missiez...feel the bored, the happiness, n so many the that you will feel...blajo2la masak...:)
dearest cik iti. i think i am quite capable of cooking...gimme a pot and spatula anytime, bebeh!!! (pot and spatula???)
i wish you all the best honey :) thanks for dropping by my blog. i noe u can do it! i give my 100% support in whatever you do. fuh fuh~
i understand ur hopes and principles in life..coz u r freak.and freak people always think differently. haahaa..u knw wut i mean.well obviously zureus,ur life.. it's going to be an amazingly interesting life dear...love u.
Yeah, I also dont know what to do with my cuti. Except for travelling, working and get money to put on dinner table every night. or morning.
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