Tuesday, March 4, 2008

I Want To Go Home

Today I didn’t want to wake up. I didn’t want to have my breakfast. I didn’t want to do my laundry. I didn’t want to do anything. I just want to sulk alone in my bed…with nobody interfering. But I have to get up anyway. I have to do my laundry because if I don’t, they’ll pile up and I’ll get mad over the sight of that dirty laundry.

My mom called me at 7 sumthing in the morning and asked me whether I have any important tests during the week. I felt curious because she usually won’t ask those kinds of questions. Yesterday she told me she was at the hospital, getting her eyes checked. It seems like she’s gone blur again.

Then she broke the news. Yesterday she was admitted to the hospital. She didn’t even tell me because she thought I’d worry like hell (which I did). So today after Subuh prayer she told me about it. I felt like I want to fly home straight away. Damn the assignments, the presentations and the proposal.

I can’t go back. I have seminar presentation tomorrow night. Just now Ms Hasimah called me and asked what made me call her when I know she’s attending conference. I told he what happened and she asked me repeatedly whether I want to go home. So she cancelled one of the classes. Still, I can only go back this Friday morning. I can’t wait.

I can’t wait to go home.
Damn the proposal.
Damn the seminar.
Damn everything.

I just want to go home.

2 comments:

yda hashim said...

babe!i'm sorry to hear bout ur mom..dun worry too much k,she'll be fine.. wat's wrong with her eyes nway?if u feel like talking or sharing bout something,anything,i'm always here for you thru thick n thin k..n remember to doa to Him,believe me,it helps..

Azureus said...

thanx...her eyes gone almost blind on one side.and she's not telling me anything abt it.i'm goin back a.s.a.p.