internet mmg cam shial hari nih.ade ke patut dekat garis2 yg ade line internet tu asyik kelip2 cam hape..cam biskut chipsmore pun ade, kejap ade kejap takde.bengang betul aku.dahla besok encik syaril nk tgk questionnaire adaptation...with the theoretical base skali. APe ke hal? ingat kitorang dh blaja ke nk buat questionnaire encik syaril oi!!!!
tetibe sem nih nak kena amik kelas spss. FYI, spss stands for statistical packages for social sciences. go figure.hari2 aku masuk kelas tu mcm mimpi je.mcm en.syaril tu ayam, kami nih itik.hapekebende die cakap langsung aku tak paham.aku tau la ANCOVA, ANOVA, chi-square tu ape, tapi tak pernah terfikir kena blaja skang.lagipun research kitorang mane ade pakai sample sampai beratus2..cam buang karan pun ade pegi blaja spss tp takleh guna questionnaire tu in real life kind of research!
sebenanye mase aku taip blog nih internet limited connection.memang nak mampos la tukang pasang internet nih.aku tak kire.besok aku nak gi tebang tiang wireless blakang bilik nih.dasar tiang tukun!!!!!when they first installed the wireless post, everything went well..heaven seyh...laju giler sampai aku bleh download hanakimi japan sesuka hati jek.then sum stupid dumbfool pegi pasang modem...one modem for each three houses.for sure la rumah aku tak kena tang pasang modem tu.seriously, diorang nih tertinggal otak ke kat pejabat mimos tuh????
arghh..tensen wehhh...ergh...what should i do????
during lunch today i had a hearty conversation with cheryl".its really frightening to hear her story (which i'm not mentioning here...duh!!) .its been only for a few days back that i started to think seriously about my relationship with this guy that i hontoni suteki! for all these years i kept waiting and what did i get? i got shit on my back thats what i got.
i dunno if i should be asking questions like "Where are we heading to?" and "do you feel like i feel?" to him. i mean, that'd be me crossing that one ocean with a giant leap.damn this is freaking hard.but i cant just let the chances go by, not taking risks cuz i'm too scared to face the fact.
part of me wants to keep this kind of weird creepy but warm feeling (its love la you fool!) and just let it died unspoken, but part of me wants to let it all out, and get ready to be rejected or accepted, keeping in mind that at least in the future i can tick off the option "pour out all my feelings to a guy whom i really like, sincerely" from the "things i wanna do before i die" list.
yes i do have that list somewhere at the back of my mind..some other things included are "dump a guy who's not worth it".tick."bungee jumping".untick."parachuting".untick. "audition for AF at least once".untick."sing on the Panggung Budaya Stage"tick."join a marathon", "achieve datuk paduka","visit all the islands in malaysia", bla bla bla...all UNTICK. so you see now how busy i am trying to tick all the things i wanna do in the list????
whateva it is..i gotta go sleep now.so dat (hopefully) i can get up early tomorrow and do my questionnaire.damn it.
now i'm listening to "walk away" by christina aguilera.so the very seswai dengan my situation skang nih.argh!!!
"and it hurt my soul...cuz i cant let go...all these walls are caving in...i cant stop my suffering...i keep going back to the one thing that i need...to walk away from"
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