Growing Up

"Growing up is not all about making the right decision, it is also about living with the decision that you've made"

Strangely, I got this saying from the "Ugly Betty" series. Ha.

I think I've grown up enough to make decisions.

I guess I'm not that grown up yet.

Letting go of the offer that came my way makes me uncomfortable and jumpy.

Then I heard Betty's father saying the above words.

I guess I have to live with my decision.

Come what may, I'll stick with it. Live with it. And Bare with it.

COME WHAT MAY...

The Working Thing

Now i'm sitting in one of the computer labs in my workplace.

Sometimes I wonder whether I am really meant for this job.

Currently, only me and Cheryl are working.

One of us is doing her MA.

I guess money didnt matter to her because she's filthy rich.

ME?

I dunno.

I received the KPM letter last week.

Mom has been bugging me, asking me to go for the interview.

I decided to stay put and think.

Should I do my master this July?

Or should I wait for a year?

My instinct never betrays me.

And this time it says "Take a year to get used to your work. Then apply for fellowship."

Thats what it says.

I don't know whether it's the instinct or the urge to oppose everyone's opinion.

You see...I don't really care about what people say. Especially when I don't ask for your oppinion goddammit!

Recently, my ears were stuck with some lame opinions from the people who aren't worth it.

I really hope that this person will learn someday that you don't have to ALWAYS tell people your two cents worth of opinion.

thats all for today.some other lecturer ius going to use this room.ciao